Money

I have just been informed that I haven't written a new post in over two weeks. This is tragic for many reasons. I'm just too good at this to not write in that long. It's four am. I should be sleeping. Or studying. Again. At least I took a shower. I'm nice and clean. Anyway, as many of you know I recently became utterly and completely broke. I wondered how this could have happened because I worked hard this summer and made over ten thousand dollars. I figured it would get me through. Then I added it up and decided that it's way too expensive to live. I splurged for the first time ever and bought myself a desktop and a laptop in March. Then I had to keep paying for an apartment in Provo due to a dirty liar and cheat that I trusted. Somehow he sleeps well at night. Then there were several other expenses. I'll list them:

Computer: 2000
Tuition: 2000
Summer Rent (Cost covered by me): 800
Arrest: 837
Car Costs: 500
Deposit for Apartment: 200
Rent: 1570
Utilities: 200
Tithing: 1000
Books: 200
Money Lent out: 800
Food (March-December): Unknown
Miscellaneous: Unknown

I have no idea how much food I bought, but I'm sure it was less than the average person since I often forget to eat. Miscellaneous is probably spelled wrong and it covers anything not in the list that maybe I forgot about like buying soap or going out with friends. I estimated on the low end for most of these things. Not including the unknowns (which include major essentials) I ended up with $10107 dollars. Huh, that's where all my money went. I think some of the people around here don't understand the effort involved. In Provo if you want a job you'll get something around 8 dollars an hour. If you're lucky. At my previous employment I was earning somewhere around 9. Do you know how many hours it would take to make $10000? Let's do that math too after taking taxes out which at that income for a single person is around 23 percent. You'd have to make $13,000 to get $10,010 at that rate. That's 1,444.44 hours or 36.11 full time weeks. Wow! What's a young college student to do in Provo? There are several solutions. Sell plasma. Full time job year round. Scholarships, grants, loans. Get rich quick summer scheme. Move away for the summer and try to make a decent buck.
Then you've got your rich kids who have no concept of money and don't understand what you're going through. Their parents pay for everything. Their job is a hobby. They use YOUR STUFF! Eat YOUR FOOD! And yet they complain about not having everything they want and school being tough etc. They live in a little fantasy world. I've had people insult my car. I've had girls complain that I didn't take them to nice places. I've had friends get upset when i won't go places with them. I've had everyone think I'm being a killjoy for not going out to eat every other night. Guess what. These things take money! And money is in short supply around here. So what will I do? Well, I tried the summer thing and I'm broke. I've screwed up enough grades that scholarship is out. Loans are out for a complicated reason. Grants, I tried. Nope. Work year round? Did it for years but in the end it nearly killed me. Whine some more? Maybe a little. Ask a rich friend for money? Hmm, I blew my chance for that too. She might have given me some had I asked the right way or promised the right thing. Oh well, I'll figure it out.
How much of my situation is my fault? Quite a bit actually. I won't deny it. I screwed up with school which cost me scholarships and loans. I took some time off to play in the summer. Bad idea. I made a lot of money, but not enough. I didn't plan ahead well enough either. I should have gotten at least a parttime job when i came back to Provo. Friends offered, but I thought I was fine. I should have at the very least gotten straight A's this semester, but a few distractions at critical times cost me some key tests and then I blew that too. Laziness might have played a role as well. So do I deserve help? Do I deserve for someone to step in and save me from the mess I made? Well, if I was a Democrat who supported Obama I'd say yes! Save me from the hole I dug for myself! But I'm not. I have this weird idea that people should be held responsible for their actions. So I'll try and get myself out of this. It should be fun. So keep an eye on me for the next few months. Pull up a chair and make some popcorn. This oughta be at the least entertaining.